Child Support

I did not have money magically appear in my bank account last week. It was not a good thing. Rent was due, bills need to be paid, and so on. I was trying hard to breath and have some faith that we would be taken care of, but it is really difficult when you watch the numbers in your bank account continue to go down and there is nothing going in. I think I checked my bank account at least once every day this past week. Obsessive... perhaps. But today it was rewarded. Child support had arrived! Hooray! I got my older kids on the busses and sent them off to school, then gathered #6 and headed off to the store. I swear, there is no better feeling than being able to walk into the store and know you can get stuff and actually pay for it! It was heady! I was ecstatic! I could buy shampoo so I am not sharing the one bottle left with my children and really hoping each morning that #1 remembered to put it back in my shower when he was done with it so I don't end up running across the house naked - again. I could replace the cleaner that #6 emptied into the toilet one day and flushed. I could buy wrapping paper for some gifts I have been making. I can write checks to the babysitter and not worry about them bouncing. I don't think there is a more liberating feeling than knowing you can actually pay your bills! Some day, I am going to be done with school and have a job that pays my bills without child support. That way, if I get it, it's a bonus. If I don't get it, we're still ok and I am not panicking. I can't wait!